The hideous nature of human is to falsy believing that a person can achieve anythingg he wants, this is the trick that mind plays on the body. It is easy to get carried away by such thoughts because mind is as deceptive as it can be.

While having the black mass power inside me, it constantly conflicts when I’m trying to have conversation with someone. It is really not possible for me to swtich context from one person to another as there is a constant needs to pay real good attention on my focus.

The money making mind or constant need for the money comes out of lazy brain. When you keep your body exercised, the mind gets back in to non stressed mode and is powerful to tackle lot of challenges.

The trick in the survival is to focus on your own goals, set yourself free, believe in yourself and be constantly aware of whats happening around you.

For example, I’m im the office meeting while paying attention to what they are speaking. Usually this meeting starts from 10:30, slowly moves towards what is being said by someone to what needs to be done.

The work is great, because thats what I believed myself to be at. Later on, as it turned out, it is easy to create work for your own self without relying on anything else. Yesterday when I went for running in the treadmill, I realised that I was not runnning I was speed walking. The constant body movement, the counting of the steps in the space helped me to train my mind to focus on the body and not anything else.

Thats a lesson learnt, when the mind focuses on the body a sychronosity is set. When the body gets the power to face the fullest, I realised that last time I cut my hair because I thought growing hair is not acceptable by the society to attend the marriage. Shit I made a terrible mistake of cutting down my hair. I took a vow not to cut hair as it saved time.

Sometimes I get a heart racing effect on my chest because it is not what I thought it was. I was good at chasing my interests, as it turns out, trusting the mind into the ideas that it provides is not really a good thing to do, being disciplined is the only chance of survival.

Once you scroll down this page, you realise that the words do not have an end to the talks that people speak about, the people at SAP were not nice or I wasnt nice to myself. Only way to survive is to move forward and do things that make your eyes spark up.

So the story to be told is to face your own life, write everything down. Will this help at anything ? I’m not sure, but typing makes the mind focus on what is being done, I am in sync with the computer trying to see what I type the sound in the head into the text, I once was fantasising that I could build a mind reading device that can detect the senses out of the brain and directly into text. With that challenge in the head, I realised that If I’ can figure out such hardest thing I scoped down to a level that faces the current generation of time and space,scoped down till down to build an interface that will allow me to see the code in less distraction space.

My goal is to build interfaces that will abstract out the unwanted things out of the head. I carry jesus with me all the time towards the space where I can build what I want. but thats no the reality I’m in.